wednesday

As you can tell, I am losing enthusiasm toward this blog.  It takes quite a bit of convincing for me to put forth the effort to post anything anymore.  Its not that I am wanting to get out of the “work” that this blog is about, but I am just wondering about the blog’s efficacy.

It stopped being a brutally-honest soul-bearing vehicle a long time ago.  It stopped being therapeutic a while ago.  Now it is either a place for me to complain about stuff, or a place to philosophize to a non-existent audience…

Monday was one of the worst days I’ve had in a long time.  I cried a lot.  I felt overwhelmed by a feeling of apathy and frustration.  I felt totally alone.  I have an appointment to meet with a psychologist in a few weeks.  I’ve been doing better since then, though frustration seems like it is my constant companion.

I am thinking that this might be my last post.  I think that this blog has run its course.  I don’t think it is helpful anymore.  I need to communicate with people, not shout into the darkness (and it is pretty dark and lonely around here…)  I need to connect…not wander in circles by myself.

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~ by Taylor on May 5, 2010.